i was so tired when I woke up this morning. I went to bed at 10:30, so I just must have gotten too much sleep. I bid on a purse on ebay today and I think I won it. Craig got mad about it and yelled at me over the phone - but he will get over it. Anyway, we were fine after that. I came to my Papaw's. I am going to stay here probably until Thursday night. My head hurts, as it has for two days, and i am really tired. I have to get up at 5:30 when i stay with my Papaw - it's the rule because that's what time he leaves to go to work and I have to be awake before he leaves so I won't miss the bus. It sucks.

i was so tired when I woke up this morning. I went to bed at 10:30, so I just must have gotten too much sleep. I bid on a purse on ebay today and I think I won it. Craig got mad about it and yelled at me over the phone - but he will get over it. Anyway, we were fine after that. I came to my Papaw's. I am going to stay here probably until Thursday night. My head hurts, as it has for two days, and i am really tired. I have to get up at 5:30 when i stay with my Papaw - it's the rule because that's what time he leaves to go to work and I have to be awake before he leaves so I won't miss the bus. It sucks.

Topic: Sleepy
I havn't had time to write at all this past weekend and I am so tired now and I want to go to bed, so I will just briefly re-cap. First off, Molly, who is supposed to be my best friend, has not called me at all this weekend, but anyway, Friday night Craig and I had our differences- but it was ok. Saturday night was the same, but not as bad. We went out by K-Mart and I was up 'till 1:00 this morning and overslept. I only had 15 minutes to get ready for work (I work at K-Mart, which seems to be the hot hang-out spot on the weekends), but besides that, today went well. i was upset with Craig this weekend because he made me think that he wasn't planning on staying with me-like he has just been putting on a show all this time-but then today i was thinking and I figured that with me being so upset this past week - he has probably felt and thought the same about me and was acting that way as a shield from getting hurt. This was why we were upset with each other over the weekend. So, now i am fine - as long as i can keep myself thinking this way. We were a lot better today. He was very nice. i have been keeping myself from talking about babies and marriage, and it seems to be a good thing, but then sometimes it's like if I don't tell him that I want to marry him, then it makes him feel like I don't want to be with him anymore or something. I guess I am going to spend the rest of the week at my Papaw's - maybe. I really want to. I told Craig I needed a break from everything - he thinks I am going to break up with him - but I'm not - I love him way too much to ever do that. Apparently he just doesn't know exactly how much I am in Love with him--if he only knew.

Today was so-so. I didn't go to school. I did not feel good at all this morning, just like last night. Now I feel a little better. i watched tv for a while when I woke up and i kept getting that real yancy feeling like i should be doing something. Mom came home early-which was cool. I went to Molly's house for a while to kill some time before Craig got off work. He was in a good mood today, thank God. I hate it when he comes home in a bad mood because I feel like I am being a burden to him, and plus it's like i can't do anything right. I am going to try to keep this up to date everyday now- even though I say that everytime I start a blog or journal, this time I am really going to try. But anyway, when Craig picked me up, he went home to shower and his Grandma wasn't home-which was weird. (For those of you who don't know, Craig lives with his Grandmother because when he was about 10, she got real sick so he went and stayed with her and just never left and has lived with her ever since, his parents live elsewhere and he still goes to see them everyday). I guess she was at the store. But anyway, we watched tv and stuff. Then he took me home.

I felt bad all day today. I really don't know what is wrong with me. i have just felt like crying all day. Luckily we had a 1:00 dismissal at school today. I guess I am just depressed. I want to go to my Papaw's house and stay so bad. if it wasn't for Craig, I most definitly would. It didn't help my depressed feeling any when Craig decided that he wanted to go to bed at 8:00 tonight. I just feel like he doesn't want to spend time with me anymore - like he just doesn't want to be with me and i hate it so much it hurts. I don't know what to do to change his mind. I feel like i am just stuck in the middle of everything. i don't even want to talk to Molly anymore. She gets on my nerves. She never acted that way until she started to hang out with Jessica and Lindsay. But what really bothers me about her is that she is always saying something about Craig. I feel like I am always defending our relationship when I am around her. i don't think i should have to do that.

August 21, 2005
Right now I am setting in my third period class at school. I am kind-of tired, but anyway, I decided to make my first blog, well auctually, my second.